sometimes i hate my life. i hate how somethings turn out and some of the decision i and other people have made have forever effected my life. but i just try to look at things the way that one special guy always said to. he has always told me "things have to get worse before they get better" and i have always found that to help me get through and over situations. he always told me "you can never stop because i will never let you. i will always be there to catch you and put you back where i know you belong". i loved those words. i live by them when I'm down on myself, somewhat fearing that he would be disappointed in me if i were to stop or give up on myself. and if i didn't have encouragement before i sure do have it now. he is the light and love of my life that keeps me living, not just physically but emotionally and mentally.
when we are not together, not speaking to one another i feel as if i don't have feelings at all. nothing gets to me and i can just let everything go. but with him its this constant want and need. this desire and passion. an occastional struggle that inspires most of my writing. he makes me human, in a way. he gives me my heart. its something about him that completes me.
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Ah, yes keep those words in your heart. Never let THOSE go. No matter who comes and goes out of your life don't give up whatever strength you do have from it. My best friend Andjez once told me "Always expect the worst and you'll never be disappointed..." yes it is a bit depressing but it has its own way of making sense. Keep the strength.
ReplyDelete"I know I'll never be a disappointment to myself"-Beyonce' That's what I keep in my head when shit hits the fan in my life and I don't have a guy to say hey it's ok. "Never give up or I'll kill you".lol Keep smiling hell or high water.
My life is is just one big quote itself, yet my own :)