Ignoring - Not Fixing

I'm not going to lie and say that I'm just fine and peachy when i know damn well that I'm just dying inside. i mean not literally, of course, but i kinda feel lost. i just wish that i had closure from the whole thing. with everything that happen i still feel like i cant get over it, you know? i feel like any minute he might call or text me but , of course, that's not the case because i seriously doubt he is even thinking about me and if he is he isn't going to act on it, of course not because OBVIOUSLY I'm not worth it.

to just stop talking to someone is by far the most rude thing in the world, but it proves that the person is to afraid to confront you and actually tell you whats going on and/or there is no reason for the insensitive action, or lack of. some people just can not be honest and up-front. but, of course, i am VERY optimistic. i take it as "sparing my feelings" completely ignoring the fact that my feelings are hurt even more so when i am ignored. but i suck it up and keep it positive.

honestly, i need closure. i need to know that there is no possibility of "us" again. i need to know that he no longer loves me and that he wants nothing else to do with me. then maybe, just maybe, i can just let it all go. let myself get over it instead of just pretending that i already am. because right now I'm just guessing. playing off of his actions, basically, and its not helping one bit. because guessing just ends me up here and confused, as usual. but i digress.

p.s. running away from your problems is not going to help or fix anything.