Those You Love Hurt You The Most

people always say "those you love hurt you the most" and if it wasn't true before its definitely true today. my situation is a horrible one and i never in my wildest dream would have thought my life would feel so empty now, nor did i think i would feel like this again. betrayal is the most emotionally straining thing in the world to me. to betray my trust is like the worst thing you can do to me.

my so-called "best friend" is now telling everybody my personal business. she is taking it upon herself to let everyone know about my life. these people she are telling don't know me from a box of cookies but she feels the need to completely step outside of our friendship and our trust and just open her mouth to anyone who will listen. once again i say, she is not a friend.

my relationship with this guy is my business but now i guess its everyone business. i guess what i want and am happy with doesn't matter. my feelings do not matter obviously. never did she stop to think how this would effect my life and/or my feelings.

why would she do that to me? why would she dare tell a soul the things i do in my life that i didn't give her permission to tell. yet again i say, this is my life and if i wanted to share it with someone then i would but since i didn't go to the person myself that is, in my book, betrayal. i feel like crap. she makes me seem so pathetic and wrong.

now i dont have a soul to run to because she ruined that for me. she ruined any stability i had. i loved this girl like she was my sister but now i cant imagine us being friends again. although i believe in forgiveness things will never be the same. its so true what they say, you know, and if it wasn't then it is now.